Introduce Yourself: I’m Dillyn Taelyr who is 19. Currently a college student not knowing what I’m doing with or want to do with my life. Music has always been an important role because it has been there for me on days when I felt as if no one else was.
Thoughts On People In The World?: I don’t think there is such a thing as “bad” people. There are people who make bad decisions, but the individuals who do make those stupid decisions always has a reason for it, whether it be for no reason at all. Everyone has a story and everyone has struggled at least once in their life. We’re all humans just trying to survive for ourselves because in the end, you have you and you only. I do not think as many people realize that than they should. Americans are getting too greedy and so consumed with how others think of them. The millions of other people in the world have such amazing cultures and completely different experiences than I do. That’s why I like to get out and travel more.
What are your inspirations & goals?: When I take a step back and really acknowledge where I am in my life, I am very goal driven inspired by how I view the world. One of the people who have inspired me the most is Demi Lovato. She struggled with a lot of the same issues that I am overcoming now, except not as to an extreme as her. She’s six years sober and was a cocaine addict and now she’s a fitness enthusiast, music artist, and so much more. My main goal in life is to help people and find my own happiness in doing so. I want to give back to those who have inspired me. That is why I write music. I want my music to be healing for those who feel like they are alone or do not have a voice or feel no love. I want to spread love and give off positive vibes looking at life with an open and accepting mind.
How would you impact the world?: Because mental health issues have been a serious struggle for me throughout my life, I want to give back and be there for the people who experience what I experienced. A lot of the times, I put peoples’ problems into my own hands and then sometimes blame myself for problems that are not even mine only because I have such a big heart and I don’t want people to go through what I had to go through.
Struggles In Life? : To keep the story short, I’ll stick to the basics. I was born kinda messed up…as in I was left in a box at a train station in China when I was born. That screwed with my mind growing up because I have abandonment issues and I get attached to people very easily, which can be emotionally dangerous. I am clinically diagnosed with ADHD, major depressive disorder, borderline personality disorder, bulimia restrictive eating disorder, and general anxiety. Growing up, I experienced verbal abuse and my parents were separated, however, my father eventually died due to addiction. I never felt as if I belonged anywhere in school and I’d be the outcast. I am a recovering self harm addict, I’ve had suicide attempts and throughout my life, experience panic attacks at random times. I also have an impulsive and an addictive personality so I messed around with drugs and drinking and I realized it is not a healthy way to live life.
How do you feel about yourself? Any changes you would make? : As of right now, I’m finally learning to appreciate and love myself the way others do. Each day is a struggle and not thinking about cutting on a daily basis is rare for me. However, I found working out and fitness to be a natural healing medication for me. If I had the chance to change anything about who I am today, I would not change anything because everything that happened in my past forms who I am today and each day is a learning experience for me. Each day, I just get stronger and stronger. I have extreme highs and lows and still dealing with my eating disorder, but I have also learned how to cut toxic people out of my life no matter how much it hurts or how much I am used to it. I try and surround myself with positive people best I can.
What does love mean to you?: Love means everything to me. Love does not mean you have to be “in love” with someone. Love is found throughout anything and everything and everyone. There are going to be a lot of fake people who just go along with society and the “rules,” but that is when you are looking for love in the wrong place. Simple acts of kindness can come a long way for one person. I never understand why people are so afraid to compliment strangers or wave or say hi. It is because we’re not used to being uncomfortable. The key point is to be comfortable with being uncomfortable. That way you can let love in. I know the ones who are hurt don’t love as easily, but only because they are so used to the hurt. They don’t like change. Love is so healing in so many ways and if just one person shows love, that can speak for thousands who can’t love you back because they do not know how to love or what love even is.